The One just before Graduation

Cornell life is almost over. Just 5 days to go! The lingering feeling that I didn't make the most of it academically will remain. I could have done better on some exams (Machine Learning, IR, E-commerce), but some of my efforts just didn't come to fruition. Tough luck! I am really proud of the learning I gained through live objects project work, and through the courses as well. Undoubtedly, it has been the most incredible learning experience ever. Being the self-critic that I am, I will add that I could have done more.

I met some great people, some weird ones, came to terms with my laziness, let myself go occasionally, came to know myself much better, gained some much needed self-confidence, realised mistakes that I should not make in the future, faced failures. All in the space of 9 months. Oh, and I played a hell lot of sports as well :P

I am incredibly glad and feel lucky that at least I have a job offer in hand, a great offer in fact. Sometimes I become paranoid and wonder if I earned it all. How suddenly life has changed, and how easily a lot can be snatched away from me. Is it completely inconceivable that Oracle will wake up tomorrow and tell me, "you didn't get good enough grades, we are revoking the offer"? I guess I am bitching about this because I just learned that I got a deserved B on LSI, and a completely unjust B+ on E-Commerce. I did all the fucking assignments, wrote a decent exam, and I get a B+, while Mehant did jackshit and got an A. (I am sure I will laugh about my immaturity when I read this 10 years later, but I am just crazy worried that such poor grades don't come back to bite me in the ass).

Played football today. Was surprised at my stamina, I guess all the tennis, football, racquetball, walking uphill to school have paid off! Caught the series finale of 24, no great shakes. Season finale of Chuck was also on air, but that disappointed me as well. House continues to be extremely well thought out and intelligent.

Graduation is on the 30th. Got 7 wonderful people cheering for me when I go up to receive my degree. The lingering feeling I talked about earlier will persist, but I will squash it down with some trademark "eternal optimism" :-)